Just not me ….

                                 

                                               Sudeep.R

                                 

  Forward:-Life…..what is it…we all search the answer to this question all our lives .Only a very few figure out what they are actually searching for and even fewer are happy with what they find. its such a complex thing…life .love hatred friendship courtship…all sorts of attachments commitment responsibilities duties …….one might feel suffocated and disdained when they give wind to these thoughts… 

Chapter 1:-life till then…

 Abhays life was kinda confusing …He was a 1^{st mbbs} repeater and he was giving his exams for the 3^rd time in next this may. He was lying in his bed saliva oozing from the sides of this He was lying on his bed with saliva oozing out of half opened mouth wetting his pillow before waking up with a jerk to the loud bhajan that was his alarm most of the days coming from the next door gujju offering morning prayers.."Asshole why the hell does he keep it so fucking loud?!! He want god to fall down an listen to his pleas?!!"thot abhay getting up wiping off the drip. His head was still buzzing from yesterday night bash at his frnds house from where he somehow managed to convince his frnds that he had to study..But frnds being friends were quick to realize the internal fight that was going inside everytym he shot a gaze at the bottles...they snt him hostel after a few pegs an quick dance moves. he hit the bed early thinking he will wake up to study in the morning (yea ryt..like thats ever gonna happen).

Pissing in to the  toilet an lighting a cigarette he smiled at the stunts of his frnds at peace villa..thats wat they call themselves peace bros..HIs frnds sure knw how to enjoy life..wiping his face he opened the window to let the cool breeze in.it had rained like the past 2 weeks.abhay felt a chill up his spine an he took a deep drag of his cigarette. .awsme..He scanned the girls hostel  a few metres away looking for any pretty faces that myt make his day better.no one..guess every1 must b sleeping..hmm.

It was 10 past 4."who would b out in the corridor at this tym?"he thought."even the book worms would b studying within the warmth of the walls of their room.il sleep too mayb for another half an hour".

Looking out in thought taking a quick gulp of water he was about ready for his second round of peaceful sleep when he noticed a door open in the fourth floor of girls hostel an a light flickering..smeone came out with two books minimum an a study board .she sat in a chair facing boys hostel streching her legs in front of her."omg she is a crazy one...it must b freezing out there.."abhay thought as he looked in disbelief before crashing to his bed thinking "fuck she is either nuts or is fighting the sleep..an here I cant study evn in my room..pfff.."

Waking up to his alarm at 6 the first thing  abhay did was check if the girl had givn up her suicidal mission..he lifted just his head from the bed an saw her still sitting the same way..fully layerd but bare feet facing towards the cold wind..wow...shes tough..abhay had a sudden ignition of his duties as a repeater an a flame for studyn..he hit the books but soon within half an hour he was bored an started idling away time.He din have class now as he was a repeater but anyways it was a sunday an he was goona meet ritu..oh ..ritu was his gf for the past 4 months.shes doin her engg in manipal about 2 hrs frm manglore..so they meet up on weekends..he looked back.she was still studying.

" damn fuck her and her books"cursing the  girl  who reminded him of his exams abhay lazyily crashed upon his bed..again..